Lookin' Within Yourself

I feel as though I'm missin' somethin' out of my life. Something significant. I'm trying to 'find myself,' my place in life. The billion dollar question is: What do I want out of life? I want to move forward than wasting my time repeatedly doing the same things over again n' again day in n' day out.
If something doesn't change soon, I could seriously sponteously combust, implode, freak out, whatever!
I want to move forward in life, not stuck in one spot for the rest of my days, wasting away into nothingness. I want to make something of myself, become a famous something or other, preferably in music. That's why I decided to sign up to learn how to sound record, to become a disc jockey aka dj. Maybe I could be like Samatha Ronson, deejaying at nightclubs.
First small-town SF, then I'll move on to big time LA or maybe NY, spinning tracks, mixing music. When I dream, I dream big! Hopefully, all my dreams will come true! Everlasting! Dreams are attainable if you work hard you will succeed.
But if I don't get to work in niteclubs, then I can work in a radio station. I would so love to work at a radio station-I just recently realize I love 80s music, but I feel so old listening to it, I also love Hip-Hop and R&B plus dance music. I could spin music all day n' all nite long. Maybe create my own radio station, playing underground musik?
The radio stations all have a specific type of music (ex. KMEL plays Hip Hop and R&B and Movin 99.7 plays dance musik. while Kiss 98.1 plays Old School music mostly 80s sometimes disco Well, those are my fave radio stations.)
I rather prefer working at a nightclub, but you gotta be loud. For a quiet person, I can't attain that goal.
And on radios, they don't have to see your face, which won't make me nervous, so the radio station's the best bet.

Also I want to someday get my short stories published. Be recognized for my creative writing, win writing awards. and becomea world-renown authoress so that I could buy my own mansion in Miami or Pac Heights. Miami because it's so so very incredibly beautiful. Words cannot describe how beautiful it is although I just did, huh? and maybe Pac Heights cause the richie rich lives there. Me mingling with the rich n' famous would be ultracool. Rubbing shoulders with the rich and famous (and sometimes infamous).  My neighbors would be the rich folks. So stellar.
I am weighing my options here. Maybe I csn live in both Miami n' Pac Heights.Miami's South Beach is so totally awesome! The sand is so pristine and white  Pac Heights factoid: Dianne Feinstein lives there.We got the world's greatest baseball team, but the world's suckiest football team-not to be disloyal toward the Niners, but the I might just root for the Miami Dolphins come next season! Like the Niners have a chance of prayer even though they'vee a new coach! Lame.
I know my dreams are lofty at best, but if you try hard you can succeed at anything, so my parents said often to me and my brother as children. (Yep, I do have a good memory; more often than not I remember the bad than the good, but that's a whole other topic...)